The reasons are multiple in number and of very different nature. One could argue that this question does not justify a post of its own, as it’s simply an urge of writing that essentially makes you write. Well, definitely not for me – that’s not good enough. I had an urge of writing when I was 15, 20 and 25. I’m pretty happy to not have had published anything. I’d like this to be a statement of my intentions. Partly because I want to stay honest to myself and transparent to others. Partly because I’m not yet sure, if I myself am good enough, to offer value through my reflections. That takes me to the first reason behind the ‘why’.
This is a self-test. A test of, if all the upcoming reasons are actually valid and in place. It is a test of the credibility of my reasoning and ego. It’s also a test of many more trivial things, such as my ability to write, use languages or navigate socially in response to critique, among others.
It’s a test of if I really have a case. This is a rather tough one, because it’s not that easy to actually measure if the case is there. What makes a case seem plausible? Having an audience of interested people? Well, to some point probably, yes. I wouldn’t take it too far though, as observing our societies gives me evidence, that common interest is generally just as good a sign of being effective, as it is of being easy, shallow and nothing more than pleasuring. As the latter don’t incentivize me at all, I’d look more into possibilities of finding good conversations, meeting inspiring people, receiving a few, but thoughtful comments. That would definitely be some evidence. So what then?
Then comes the big, non-meta, part. I’ve been observing the world for some years now, and I am definitely not OK with the general state of it. I’m not OK with much of what I’m experiencing. Our world, or to be more precise – people, their actions and structures, alert me to the point, that I feel the need to verbalize my objection. At the same time I think, or should I say, suspect I have value to offer. It’s not only grand ideas and important topics I’d like to write about. On the contrary – I’d like to start with focusing more on small, practical and somewhat experience-based matters, which do not transcend my knowledge or intellectual capacity. Stretching is alright. Talking about something without any bright insight, grounded knowledge or interesting experience is usually not. I’d like to address what I learn in the course of my professional life, as also in the result of everyday observations and thought processes. I’d like to do so, to provoke others to think, and be brave in doing so. I feel, it is the only way to make our world a better place. I’d say, that is a decent reason.
I truly hope that I will find at least some small interest. If not, well, maybe this effort will at least be one for the sake of fulfilling the last reason, which is organizing my own thoughts, and thus somewhat formalizing the conversation with my hyperactive mind.
